Wednesday, January 13, 2010

On board

I know, 13 days into the new year and no posts from Liz....

Another writing block? I have had a few post ideas floating around in my head- but have not had the motivation to sit down and write them. Until now...?

On new years day I realized I only had 55 days left of being a participant in the CALERIE study (now only 42) and it initiated a mini-freak out. What am I going to do? How am I going to be able to do this on my own? What if I gain 20lbs? What if I forget everything I learned?

Nothing I had not thought before, but it all seemed so much closer. So much more real. The study is actually going to be over. Two years already!?

I have since negotiated these thoughts and am practicing telling myself (over and over) that I can do this, I will not forget everything, and if I gain weight, I know how to lose it.

It is helping.

I am writing this the day before a CALERIE party- and if it is anything like last year- I will leave feeling empowered that I can do this for the long haul. That will help power me through this last month in a sprint.

Another thing that is helping, related to sprinting, is the fact that TE and I (along with a few friends) are training for a half marathon in May. TE has been dragging me out of bed in the mornings to run (despite my cranky grumblings), and I know as it gets warmer (will it ever get warmer?!) it will be easier and easier to run.

Exercise helps me make better food choices. Having the support of people who helped me get here will help me make better choices. And reminding myself of how I did this for two years will help me make better choices. And again, I will remember the mice.

I hope to document this last month well so that I can look back on my two years of blogging, eating well, and changing my life, and know that I can continue this for life! Help keep me honest!!

Thank you for reading and following me/supporting me throughout this study!