Sunday, October 24, 2010

150 and the Beginning ... Again

This is my 150th post!


Well, I think I finally reached my max point of over everything. Overeating, over-drinking, over-stressing... you get the idea. Today begins my return to healthful eating, minimal drinking, and being productive.

I have been/done none of those things since October 8th... But my thesis defense went amazingly, I was a bit of a nut case/stress ball (of course) around that time- but the days preceding and immediately after flew by- my family and friends were so supportive and amazing and I was floored by the final outpouring of love and patience. I know that I am truly blessed.

Since then I have been on a bit of a baking/cooking bender. I also have been avoiding any and all exercise (mostly with the excuse that I need more sleep and since I still have work to do, something had to give). And I have been drinking. A lot. All of that equals weight gain. I don't even know how much. I am scared to look. I will check tomorrow for the charting progress, but I know it is not going to be pretty.

I plan to start easy and this week I am going to eat more mindfully, plan out my meals/snacks etc for the next week because this upcoming weekend is my best friend's wedding. A celebration where a lot of food and alcohol will be consumed and I will not be counting. But I still remember the CALERIE life lessons and I know that the mindset of "I will just start next week" is not good and it never gets easier. This is a lifestyle of eating healthy and not beyond my needs (hopefully I can get back to the restricted state!) and the faster you get back to it, the better you feel about it. So here it goes.

I am excited for this new beginning and for the comfort of knowing that I know how to do this and I really mentally ready for it!

Friday, October 1, 2010


Thesis Update: it has been completed and distributed to my committee (yeehaa!) and now I am in the final throws.

One week until D-day.

The email announcement (time, date, place...) went out today to the entire department. Now whenever I see anyone in the hall- they will comment and ask me how I am feeling. That, inevitably, will make me want to run the the bathroom and puke-- but I will restrain!

My final thoughts on thesis writing and eating= Not good. I won't step onto the scale, but I fear the worst. 4lbs?? More?? I hope not. I will save all scale weighing until Sunday October 10th. The official day of beginning CR "for real" again :)

I am looking forward to eating more regularly, planning my meals, and COOKING!! OMG how I miss cooking! And baking! I have a fun new idea brewing for the blog so stay tuned.

Yoga update: I had to stop doing yoga for two weeks because I was staying up too late to wake up at 6am to go to yoga (the yoga I have been doing is only offered in the morning). But I went back this morning- and it feels great to be back. I hope I can keep it up this winter. I am SO not a morning person and it is DARK at 6am... I got my first pair of lulu.lemon pants (!!) and hoodie for my birthday so I hope that is motivation to keep my butt in the yoga studio!

I think that is all I can update on. The thesis has consumed my life... Nothing new going on... That will all change soon enough though! Thanks for reading and sticking with me!